I've had a bit of a departure from my core topic lately, but I feel it's time to come back and write another entry about one of my personal minority groups.
I'm a dreamer.
Now, I've heard plenty of definitions for "dreamer," and I think all of them are more or less accurate. But the way I define it is someone who is idealistic, and who looks past the boundaries of the physical and material worlds and into the mind and heart and soul as a matter of course. I do this. To the point where sometimes I forget to look at the physical world at all, instead just thinking in terms of the "inside world." I dream almost as much as I live awake, odd though that may seem.
I'll be honest, what I'm about to say is probably gonna weird some of you out. Maybe a lot. But it's still very important to understanding my perspective on this.
I have people, living people, inside my mind. They are not human, certainly, and some of them are extraordinarily outlandish in appearance. Most are fairly humanoid and easily-understood, though. I've been told I'm a very good writer, especially by fans of my original fiction. The reason for my skill is that I only describe what I see. If I need to figure out how a certain character would act in a certain situation, I usually just go inside and ask them in person. Or I'll let events play out however they will, and record my perspective on it all as it happens. As a result my writing tends to be at least immersive, if not "realistic."
Most of these self-aware entities are separate from me, and live in their own discrete worlds -- mostly separate from each other as well. But occasionally, one will stand out from the crowd as being able to connect to me in a more personal fashion, and these are usually the ones that end up being the series mascots, as it were, and most "alive" to me. I draw them, I write about them, I show them off, because other people cannot see what I see -- as it is only happening in my head. I haven't been able to track down just exactly where, but at some point in the past I remarked to someone "Of course it is happening inside your head... but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"
I firmly believe in that statement. People are constantly worrying that what they perceive is "not real," or somehow invalidated by the fact that it is non-physical. I don't think most people are dreamers by this definition, but such individuals definitely exist. They hold their ideals high, and they have whole internal worlds to back those ideals up. None of us, dreamers or otherwise, will fully live up to all our ideals, because we all make mistakes and screw up, sometimes a lot. But the dreamers hold the highest ideals of all, usually. The dreamers know how important it is to make things the best they can be, or at least to try.
I am proud to be a dreamer, even when it comes with the very strange parts that my life now includes. I am proud to see beyond the limits of physicality. I am proud to be an idealist. I am proud to dream.