I'm fascinated by model railroading. Plain and simple, fascinated. My dream (or one of them, anyway) for as long as I can remember was to be able to put a layout of my own together, and I've envied anyone and everyone with the means to do so.
I came close to doing it about a year ago, but finances got the best of me. I convinced my father to build me a table and began to make lists of needed supplies. And then I stopped. I don't really remember why.
But as of today, that table has been moved into my room and I've purchased a substantial amount of supplies and track. It's not enough to finish yet, and to be honest I can't really afford it, but for very deeply personal reasons I cannot afford to not at least give this my best shot.
Among several major others, my single most far-reaching reason for wanting to make a model railroad is my grandfather. He was the single greatest man I have ever known, and he gave me the unique opportunity to grow up (at some times literally) on a model railroad that has been in his and my grandmother's basement since shortly after I was born. It began quite simply, as an oval on a table with no other features, and grew to fill the entirety of a room and even spilled out through a hole cut in the wall to make a freight yard. The layout was never finished, or even given proper scenery, but it remains my eventual goal to learn what I need to finish it someday.
My own layout as it has begun is my first real step towards that goal.