Tuesday, November 22, 2011

With a sigh of distance and panic

Sometimes it escapes me how people around me can miss the signs of my unhappiness, or unease, or general warnings. But then, I guess it's easy to forget that it isn't as obvious as it feels like it should be. I feel as though I'm screaming to the world pretty much all the time, but when I look at myself in the mirror it just looks like a slight slouch. Baffling.

At any rate, married life is, categorically, just about the same as life was before marriage. There are "married people things" that are now available to us, but that's really the only major difference. Life at large is harder for mostly unrelated reasons. Things just... hurt right now. Melody has far too much on her plate and is suffering badly for it, and I just don't know how to be my own person, it seems.

We'll have to just wait and see how all this plays out, but for now I'll just sign off with a sigh.